| Remembering Susan by daughter Pamela Ann S. Puen... "
I remember the time when I was seven, someone told me I would never really be good at
anything. I ran home crying that day and ran straight into my mother's waiting arms.
There, I knew I would be understood and loved. With her I didn't have to be smart,
beautiful, or well-read; being me was enough. I guess that is what I really remember and
miss about my mother Susan ... her understanding. She had a way of making me feel
important, safe... and loved in a world I thought had no time for an inquisitive
seven-year-old.
No matter how busy she'd be wth her work, my mother made it a point to set aside an
hour or so for me. We usually spend that time either drawing or talking about my sometimes
quirky ideas about life.
There was never a dull moment with my mom! Our spare time would consist of needlepoint
and of course every girl's dream ... SHOPPING! My mom was the original "shopping
afficionado"! Whe God made my mom, He had shopping in mind.
I always thought of my mother as a very vibrant person...almost like a candle's flame
that would never go out. It came as quite a shock when my aunt took me aside and told me
my mother had passed away. I had always known that my mother was never as strong as she
pretended to be when she was sick. She would even hide her little pills and capsules and
tell me she was fine, but I could always see past her little show of bravery.
I knew that at one time or another, God will call back His creations, but I never
expected Him to take away my mom so soon. I was angry at first then remembered what my
mother told me during one of our little talks. She told me to accept the things that can't
be changed and that I should always hold my head up and never cry.
I guess my mom's death is one of those things I had to accept and I followed my mothers
advice. I held my head high but..." |